The most loving thing anyone ever did for me was tell me the truth when I didn't want to hear it. I hated them for it at the time.
LOVE
what love actually did to you
// 3 voices in the void
Not the version of love that gets talked about. The actual experience — what it cost, what it changed, what it revealed about you that you hadn't known before. The love that didn't work out the way it was supposed to. The love that changed you in ways you're still mapping, years later. The love you have for someone you've never said it to. The love that turned into something harder to name.
Love as it's usually discussed has been smoothed for public consumption. The version that fits into narratives, that concludes, that teaches a lesson you can summarize. The version here is different. The one that doesn't conclude. The one that's still ongoing even when it has no place to go.
This is where that version gets to be said.
// your voice
// the thread
I loved someone so much I became smaller to fit their life. By the time they left, I didn't know where I ended.
Love taught me I could disappear into someone and call it connection. It took years to see the difference.