My body held things my mind refused to. The therapist called it somatic memory. I call it the weight I carry everywhere.
— QuantumDust
45d ago
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BODY
what you think of the skin you're in
// 3 voices in the void
The relationship most people have with their body is one of the most edited parts of their interior life. You curate what you say about it — to the world, to friends, to yourself. You perform a relationship with your physical self: either the appropriate dissatisfaction that signals self-awareness, or the cultivated acceptance that signals having done the work. Neither may be the actual experience.
The actual experience is private. What you think about your appearance when no one else is in the assessment. How aging is registering in ways you haven't told anyone. The specific ways you inhabit this body — the things it holds, the things it won't let go of, the ways it surprises you or disappoints you or exceeds what you expected.
This thread is the private version.
// your voice
// the thread
I had an eating disorder for six years. I'm 'recovered' now. I still count everything. I just do it quietly.
— BlurredFace
45d ago
I've hated this body since I was eleven. I'm forty-three now. I'm tired of spending my life at war with something I can't leave.
— InkStain
45d ago
// end of thread
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